1 WEEK OFF DURING NEW YEAR AND I'M DRINKING HAPPILY EVERYDAY! ^^

Okay, I know it's a very late entry. Pass one week entry. I had a hard time uploading pictures as I'm tapping wireless here. Anyway..

Back to CNY, CHU 2 updates.

Meet up with Baby XT & Jenny to Boat Quay. It's been a very long time since we three meet up and drink together. Raining Bar, two bottles of Martell, woots!! ^^ After that went to Dragonfly, another Martell.

zzz.. zi lian.

okay, ending off with my classic photo of me. thanks baby!
zzzz...

CNY, CHU 4 -

Powerhouse with Baby XT and Angela. Jenny last min couldn't come.

Friday -

Was out with my precious brother to T1 arcade and Playstation at Bedok while waiting for Angela to knock off. She brought me down to Sabai Sabai. Okay, kinda weird but at the end, I enjoy somehow. ((: Supposed to join Jenny to Double O but.. end up me back out. And stupid Jenny can't stop calling me and calling me darling. Wth. -_-"

Saturday -

Went back Bedok for family dinner and head down to Powerhouse as Grace meeting me there. Surprise, I was very sober. Martell, Hennessy, Jug, Tiger mixed with Martell by Junyuan. He can become bartender at Powerhouse already. Chey!

E was there too but I didn't talk to him at all, just felt like there's nothing to talk between us. He came down just to see me while he's having a high fever and I didn't really bother much about him. He disappeared the whole night after he gave me a drink. Anyway, heard from Grace that he's just finding a SMS mate and blah blah blah. I felt so bullshit with all his messages and all his actions. Sigh.

Still, single is the best for me. Nothing to bother and upset about. Free, easy, simple and happy!

Sunday -

Out with Grace and Suer to Town. Went over to Suntec find TH and played arcade. Fun, fun. End up, all of us was at Telok Blangha Crescent drinking Heineken and I'm home now trying to sleep for tomorrow work. Too slacken to work liao. Booos!! ><

MENTALLY & PHYSICALLY

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Quiet. Paranoid. Worried. Upset. Scare. Big responsibility. Huge figures. Lots of thinking. Right or wrong decision? Words to say to Judge, what to say? What will the final outcome be like? Able to face it strongly? Able not to cry in front of him and her? But all I know I'm able to wait!!

Whole day with my precious brother and his friend, Ash. East Coast for Bowling, Pool and bear catching. And he gave me one Elmo for me to keep! ^^ Loves it lots because it's like one and only one?


MR. E texted me, I didn't really reply. He called, I rejected his calls. I really don't know why I kinda dislike him but yet, sometime he is on my mind. What's happening? @.@

Then I thought about Z* when the clock strikes 0330 PM. I won't turn up because I've already given you two my blessings. And how badly I miss you, I won't let you to know. I know things between you two ain't going smoothly for you, but I hope every circumstances will bring both of you to each level and keep going strong. Hurt? Yes, I do. But as long you're smiling, I'll smile too.

Three more days to work and twelve more days to fear. Sigh!!~
I cry, inside my heart. My brother cry, inside his heart too.

UPDATES!

First day of New Year Eve 2010 -

Meet up with Jenny, WC and GuoQing. Movie at Cine, super at Chong Pang malay stall and home sweet home.



Sunday -

Jenny supposed to meet me, end up she back me out. I'll remember babe! ^^ Whole day was with my brother and we played arcade like no one business. Just wanna spent time with my be-love, precious brother. E text-ed me to join him at Boat Quay, Shin Bar. Jenny came down to look for me after her movie with Sam. 2 bottles of Chivas for the night!



It's heavy down pour right now. Guess it's god hinting me what will the outcome be. But then again, I'm still not prepare yet and dare not to face it later at 0230pm. I'm trying to be strong and not to cry again.. For the sake of my be-love precious brother, my mom, baby XT, Jenny and myself.

More to update, nights!

WHAT NOW? GIVE UP, SECOND THOUGHTS OR ANOTHER CHANCE??

I'm like so speechless now!!!! WTFuck!!!

Yes, it's my fault that I didn't managed to go Zouk. There's always many chances to meet again, it's not the end of the world yet (though we're always hung down by work). I shouldn't have answer your call, really shouldn't. I made you worried and so do you? Okay, you're more worst than me. You're so paranoid and yet drunk. I didn't want to throw temper at you because I know you're very emotional and drunk.

All the way to Clementi just for prata, (which I'm already feeling so uncomfortable) just because I know you need to eat. Now, I'm sorry for rejecting you to send me home because I really don't feel like talking to you and you to wander around at my house for nothing. What you and I need now is to sleep and rest!

In my life, you're the very first guy that throws temper at me.

MR E, I hope you're much more better when you're awake!





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last word before I go to bed - sigh.

我知道我的愛一直都會存在. 我痛說不出來.

I miss you, he miss me. I love you, he love me.

你看着我来, 我看着你走. 没有你之後, 我才明白的更多.

Like what Jenny told me, "don't let the past affect the present." I really wish I could do it but I.. I see your face, I hear your words, I still can feel you're near to me, I know it's all illusion but I just can't help it. I just can't get out of your page. Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to you! I'm walking back and staying on to last year valentine's day! I hope you could hear me...

你最近还好吗?

We're so near to each other but yet so far away.. *emo*



真正相愛的兩個人是不會變成朋友的，因為他們愛的太深!
愛到十年之後 就連朋友都已經不是，只是兩個的陌生人!

Another Thursday night, good nights.

ROB *loves*

Jenny and I doodle on the cheesecake box randomly. And thanks Jane for the cheesecake! :D