沒那麼簡單..

I don't know how should I just express it out or either any words to describe it. I just couldn't find a way out for myself. Just one day I met up with Z, everything has changed. Just when the day I started to work at KTV, everything has changed too. My character, my thinking, my feeling, my point of view has changed.

This few days, I'm trying to find back our love but it just didn't work at all. Every time I think of it, I felt so helpless, lost and guilty. I mind about your feelings (not just your feelings). I mind about fairness. I mind a lot of things!!

We seems close it's because today Z had changed to a thoughtful person. Or maybe I would just admit that simple thing Z did, just touch my heart.. Until today, deep inside my heart and my mind is still all about Z. And at this situation now, I'm trying not to ponder anything about my feelings for who and whoever so. Everyday I'm thinking about earning more money and looking for another job.

I hope one day, my feelings for whoever will leave soon.
May it be you or either Z..

完全唱出了我的心聲! 相爱完全没那么容易..

一场游戏 一场梦

不要谈什么分离
我不会因为这样而哭泣
那只是昨夜的一场梦而已

不要说愿不愿意
我不会因为这样而在意
那只是昨夜的一场游戏

那只是一场游戏一场梦
虽然你影子还出现我眼里
在我的歌声中早已没有你

那只是一场游戏一场梦
不要把残缺的爱留在这里
在两个人的世界里不该有你

Hoh~ 为什么道别离　
又说什么在一起
如今虽然没有你　
我还是我自己

说什么此情永不渝
说什么我爱你
如今依然没有你
我还是 我自己

THANK YOU + HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

Thanks baby Xintian,
Thanks Angela,
Thanks Jenny
for turning up and the great company on the 29/07/2010

Thanks babylove
for everything you had planned for me.

Nothing special BUT I treasure the company.

My grandma & Her grandma

It's been awhile and I'm here again. Grandma passed away pass few weeks. Bits of memories flash back in my mind and was trying to hold back my tears on the last day when all of us sending her off.

Actually, I would says she's a nice grandma although she would always scold my mom and nag at my bro and me. Somehow I felt regret because we don't really visit her on Chinese New Year which is only once is a year. Every time we shifted house, she would always try her best to find us. Or I would say.. we don't really keep in contact with each other. Till the day she left, then I realize how important is it to keep in contact with the loves one. Family or friends.

After few days, Z's grandma passed away. I wanted to go down visit grandma but my mom overheard my conversation and disallowed me to go. I offer my sincere condolences to your grandma. May them rest in peace.

lilstevie.boss.birthday.celebration.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOSS!!

You're the only boss that would always nag at me to go home even if it's on weekend! BUT!! Thanks for all your care & concern, treating me like your own daughter and never fails to give me good advice and your helping hand. Thanks for taking good care of me always, loves!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOSS a.k.a lilStevie!! Cheers!! XD

T3

It's been awhile I'm here and lots of pictures is still in the pending list to update my online journal. Well, I'm totally hook on PSP!! After work Sunny bought us to Changi Airport T3 makan and walk around. And she got so hyper out of nowhere and we were like.. -_-|| <- yeah, this expression.

It's just a short update & cheers peeps!!

Lionel Richie - Just For You

Golden days, night was play, pain was all a world away,
we went to school, we learned the rules,
we trusted all they all had to say.
Then life took a turn, we all had to learn,
and we can't go back again.

And my heart is breaking just for you, just for you.
And my arms are open just for you, just for you,
just for you.

God was God, dreams were dreams, life was all cake and ice cream.
Truth was true, and lies were lies, we thought love would never die.
But the world moved on, my illusion's gone,
and I don't know who to blame.

And my heart is breaking just for you, just for you.
And my arms are open just for you, just for you,
And these tears I'm crying are for you, just for you,
just for you.

I'm looking for protection, give me shelter from the storm,
I just hope this light inside me keeps me strong!

And my heart is breaking just for you, just for you.
And my arms are open just for you, just for you,
And these tears I'm crying are for you, just for you,
just for you.

Just for you, oh, my heart is breaking!
And my arms are open,
oh, these tears I'm crying they're just for you.
Oh, yeah!

FAMILY OUTING ON SUNDAY

Jack Place for dinner at Parkway Parade and chill out at East Coast Park!! *Loves

Bro's little Stitch was with us too!!

And here comes our food, delicious!!
My medium rare steak!!
And my mom's favorite lobster!!

After that we head down to East Coast Park chill out and teddy bears catching!!
Lots of money and lots of time spent!!

Mother & her BF!!
Lots & lots of L.O.V.E.S


My mom is super excited & was very hyper playing Jackpots!!

Monday court, damn fuck up!! Waited like 2 hours and thanks to it, we didn't have enough sleep for work at night! Anyway, they postpone to 3 weeks. Gggrr!!~ Lots to update for Saturday's party!! The sun is rising now, ciaos!!

DESIGN

It's been long since I do design again. And I just did a design for Roomful of Blues party!!


Come down & join in the fun!! I don't know how to appreciate blues but I guess it's gonna be nice and fun on that day!! Can't wait to meet the musicians!! Boss is flying off to Thailand at 8am!! I gotta sleep now, ciaos!!

Tomorrow Party with Angela again!! Weeeee~

"WARM WELCOMING"

SATURDAY's FUN!!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MINMIN!!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!

"Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to Zikko,
Happy birthday to you!!.."

Do you remember our song?..

HOLLOW YEARS

Past few days received a call from here when I was at work. First thing in my mind is like.. 'Fuck, what happen to her again?!' I answered her call and I just heard her crying. My heart sank!

Lots of thoughts going through my mind..
If only.. my heart is big and open enough,
If only.. I'm hardworking and rich enough,
If only.. I'm good enough, (or am I too good for you)?
If only.. I wait longer for you,
If only.. I've the courage to face you personally..
HA! What a joke!! In my life and in this world, I don't believe in 'Forever' and 'If only'. I don't care what others gonna say and think about me, I'll always follow the nature and I'll find my answer.

I'm silly, yes I admit!
Stupid and dumb, yes I admit too!
Too kind and softhearted, yes, that's me!

I can never stop giving her my helping hands just because I'm the only one that could understand her and know what she needs. I could understand what she's going through, acting strong whereby she's not strong at all and needs someone standing strong beside her, (just because we went through real hardship together!) Yeah, I know babylove will pass by my space and I'm not afraid of her reading this, because I don't hide and I don't need to.

Baby is coming out to this world soon, I really don't know why I'm so eager to see the baby and in fact, I would like to love & dotes on the baby. But I know, it's not mine. But who cares!~ I don't know if I'll attend your wedding ceremony as I can't give you any promise and I'm afraid I'll take another pathway. I'm in a mess, very messy status! *TMD!

Another side, I've to be careful with my babylove's feelings and emotional. I know partly is my fault but I'm sorry for giving you a cold shoulder.

Sigh. Somehow or rather, I might give up everything and back to my mom's and bro's side. I miss my house, my family.. My dream and wish list is to built a house. Well.. I could do anything for anyone I love!

Good nights!

HEY HD2

Wednesday end up I was at Powerhouse after my work. Baby XT caught me at smoking area and the final conclusion was I partied with XT and Angela till lights on. Now, Angela also start to drink Guinness Draught together with me!! HAHAS!! ^^ Always fun and loves to party with the two cool peeps!! (:

Later part at Cresent.. Ha, I guess I shall not post it here. Waste of time. Coolshit morning at Cresent! Boooos!!

Guess what?! I'm gonna get HTC HD2! All thanks to David's recommendations! Look at the pictures!

Isn't it beautiful!?! Gosh, I'm drooling now!! Check out the videos from Youtube. Though it's kinda long-winded. Ahhh, blah blah blah blah~
Good nights!!

SUNMONDAY

Sunday was out with baby to IKEA.

All time favorite!!~ Swedish Meatball!

Head home to put our stuffs and last minute changes, we went to East Coast Park instead of Universal Studio. Next Sunday, 16th gonna bring baby to Universal Studio to play whole day! Here comes our second anniversary! (:

I just receive a second anniversary gift (advance, VERY ADVANCE) from baby when I just got home. It's a light pink polo! Thanks babylove! Just had my medicines, off to bed soon!
Cheers! (:

微笑祝福你!

You're strong, just like me. But right now, I'm not strong after I read your news. I should be happy for you, you made your wishes came true. But I just can't hide my true feelings inside me. Yes, I admit that I'm sad, my heart is sour and mixture of deep feelings and my mind is blank. Ha! What the hell am I writing here. 20th of June 2010, my heart will be with you for the very last time. Take good care of yourself, stay strong always & CONGRATULATIONS to YOU!!

难过过了天晴朗了,
我就走.
我听见我回头说:
你们要快乐!
My blessings to you;
微笑祝福你!!

THERE'S ONLY ONE WAY TWO SAY THOSE THREE WORD, AND THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO, I LOVE YOU.

If you happens to pass by my space, this song is for you. "I love begin around you baby."

BACK TO EARLY MARCH

Hello, back here again. Was lost touch of blogging and reading friend's blog at a period of time. Well, I've no idea where to start and this entry has been saved in a draft for quite sometime..

16th of March was our first anniversary. Thanks baby for the new Puma shoe. ^^


Before work, bought baby to Hereen get the Guess watch and send baby to work. And I quickly went down to get a surprise for baby before I'm late for my work.


18 of March, I bought candles and while baby and meimei was drinking and chatting away, I did this. It's not so nice and I took a very long time to complete it because it's my first time doing it.


25 of March, went down to play sparkles.


Haha!! I'm quite amazed by myself for all the things I've done. Okay, Tons of party photos to upload but I need sleep soon! Nights, be back here again! (:

FIRSTLY, SECONDLY AND LASTLY.

Firstly, my precious brother is out! Hopefully he'll change for a better person. Now keep looking rooms and house for my brother and mom to stay. Sigh. Stress up.

Secondly, I don't wish to mention names here. I don't own you anything. And whatever how you want to think about me. It's no longer important to me.

Thirdly, Sunday is just tomorrow! Can't wait. Going zoo with babylove. ((:

Now waiting for baby to done makeup!

Short Update

It's been a while since I update, yes, I know. Many many pictures to upload. Been busy with work and handling my brother's case. I miss him but I've to stand firm and strong. Sigh. Thanks baby staying by my side everyday. Baby, I love you many many!!

Z*

也许我太过天真, 以为奇迹会发. 我以为我够坚强, 却一天天地失望. 少给我一点希望!